So Fresh and So Clean!

You may have noticed that Nectar Madness looks a little differently these days. I decided after hitting the one year mark, it was time to show my blog a little TLC with a mini makeover. A new domain, a new theme, and a new sense of commitment. I know better than to make promises of grandeur, so without seeming overly ambitious, I will say that my intentions are to provide more informational posts regarding bipolar disorder and mental health. I’m also interested in exploring more networking and social media avenues. Of course I will continue with my personal stories and poetry as well. My hopes are that this will inspire and educate readers, and be an open door to new readers of the like.

I’m curious as to what bipolar topics readers are interested in. Thoughts?


Dream Killers & Self-Sabotage


Do you ever feel like you’re letting your tribulations get the best of you? Even when you recognize this behavior pattern and you know better? It’s tough sometimes when you have bipolar disorder or depression and you can see that you self-sabotage something good in your life, something that is working FOR you, as opposed to working AGAINST you. Why do we do this self-sabotaging?

Well there are many reasons we self-sabotage. To begin, we are scared. Scared of failure, of course, but also scared of success. If we are used to failing, and there is a chance we might succeed or win, that notion of stepping out of our element, into a new territory, is frightening. It’s uncomfortable. It also feels very vulnerable.

For those of us dealing with bipolar disorder, we know how quickly positive things can become unraveled. We might allow ourselves to go after what we want. If we’re manic, we might gather what we want and then some! But then sometimes there is that familiar pattern of taking something that is so beautiful and precious which we have acquired, earned, or won, and then in an instant- we destroy its very existence, leaving us alone or into a downward spiral of despair and aftermath.

These experiences prevent us from going after our dreams or making new, positive goals. I know I struggle with finding my passion, my dreams. I, like many others tangled in the twines of the manic and the depressive minds, becomes unsure of what is real and what isn’t real. Every day I work a little harder to achieve greatness, and to chase those dreams.

This image is something I found inspiring and motivating. Enjoy.