Roller Coaster Life

One of the reasons I started this blog is to help me learn to balance my life and learn to live with my disorder, rather than live against it. I’ve been living with this diagnosis for a long time, but each day is it’s own struggle. Just recently have I begun to embrace the mood changes and recognize their power. Poetry is a form of expressing these changes on the roller coaster ride we call life.

Roller Coaster Life

Learning how to live balanced,
Each moment after the next.

Discomforting ambush of assorted emotion
Swallow me then spit me out.
Sucker punch the pendulum,
Frolic so lively, then shit to despair.

Trying to find balance,
A single moment to the rest.

Euphoric mind on a rapid zip-line.
Pretty blossom slamming blockade.
Warrior replaces my inner schema,
Powerless so possible, I shine invincible.

Forgetting the path to balance,
Moods and moments at their best.

Wake to whisper the upcoming phase.
Calm before the storming monsters inside.
Curb the coaster with prescribed sighs,
Regaining a tie-dyed sense of stasis.

Embracing a brand new balance,
Daily moments pass the test.

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3 thoughts on “Roller Coaster Life

  1. I’m glad I found your blog….
    I’m glad I’ve fallen…and where the tumbles have taken me…
    I’m glad I continue to stumble into things that are starting to make sense
    There are many things that are not so great, and do make me anxious and scared, but at least I am starting to learn why…and that there is a reason for it
    So much more…as I am sure you can imagine…bottom line…I like your blog- A LOT 🙂

    • I’m glad you found my blog as well. That’s great you are discovering yourself and figuring out what makes sense to you! It’s such a tough process and the road is eternally long. Thanks for the feedback & I’ll do my best to keep the posts worth reading 🙂

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