One of the reasons I started this blog is to help me learn to balance my life and learn to live with my disorder, rather than live against it. I’ve been living with this diagnosis for a long time, but each day is it’s own struggle. Just recently have I begun to embrace the mood changes and recognize their power. Poetry is a form of expressing these changes on the roller coaster ride we call life.
Roller Coaster Life
Learning how to live balanced,
Each moment after the next.
Discomforting ambush of assorted emotion
Swallow me then spit me out.
Sucker punch the pendulum,
Frolic so lively, then shit to despair.
Trying to find balance,
A single moment to the rest.
Euphoric mind on a rapid zip-line.
Pretty blossom slamming blockade.
Warrior replaces my inner schema,
Powerless so possible, I shine invincible.
Forgetting the path to balance,
Moods and moments at their best.
Wake to whisper the upcoming phase.
Calm before the storming monsters inside.
Curb the coaster with prescribed sighs,
Regaining a tie-dyed sense of stasis.
Embracing a brand new balance,
Daily moments pass the test.